Were you always Christian from birth? How did you find out about Providence Bible Studies?
Because I was born on Christmas Day, I always felt a close connection with the Lord. However, growing up in a Buddhist household, I wasn’t able to attend church. I didn’t read the Bible or pray regularly enough either. So it was hard for me to call myself a true Christian. Sometimes I would pray to God, but it was more like I believed without properly knowing Him. But there was one thing I kept asking God as I got older. I asked Him to give me a career where I could help people.
So God helped me become a doctor. At first, I felt really blessed and grateful to have such a stable and meaningful job. I vowed to not take it for granted and put my all into helping my patients. However, as time passed, the other non-clinical parts of medicine reared their ugly heads and started to burden me. Despite doing meaningful work day in and day out, my heart felt empty. I found myself exceedingly buried in responsibility. I saw patients full-time, ran two busy medical clinics, and managed staff and doctors.
The more I worked, the more distant I became from God.
More than half of my time was spent doing administrative, business related stuff like filling out patients’ paperwork. I stayed up until midnight every night to ensure my work was completed. I didn’t want to miss anything detrimental. This left me less and less time to spend quality time with my husband and loved ones. The more I worked, the more I became distant from God. Even though I knew He gave me this valuable job for a reason, I couldn’t help it. I didn’t want to disappoint God. But feeling drained and overwhelmed, I wondered, “What is the purpose of this? What am I doing? Is the rest of my life going to pass by just like this?”
Feeling stressed and miserable, everything around me came crumbling down. My husband and I encountered hurdle after hurdle within every aspect of our lives. And this eventually caused our marriage to breakdown. At one point, I was crying every day due to misery.
How did God help you overcome this difficult situation? How did Providence Bible Studies help?
One night, I couldn’t bear it any longer. For the first time in a long time, I prayed earnestly to God in tears. I begged Him to help me with each and every item that needed change. I asked Him to bring me closer to Him and take away my misery.
Shortly after this, my sister introduced me to Providence Bible Studies. To my amazement, in my first lesson, the Holy Trinity revealed to me the true purpose of living. Subsequently, I came to know Pastor Jung Myung Seok whose way of life taught me that true love towards God wasn’t just serving Him by doing work, but more importantly taking action out of love and living with Him in our daily lives. From this, I realized that being a doctor wasn’t just an assignment where I simply served God. In fact, I was working together with Him every minute and doing it out of love for Him. I wasn’t God’s servant, but rather a counterpart.
Pastor Jung Myung Seok taught me how to view turbulence in life from a different perspective. And he showed me how to find solutions by aligning my thoughts with the Holy Trinity’s. He taught me how to develop and utilize my unique skills to further God’s Will. This made me really value the work I did. It put a whole new meaning behind being a doctor. Now I’ve realize deeper about the mission God has granted me.
Do you have any last words you would like to say?
Providence Bible Studies really saved my life. I was heading down a path of misery, doing the same work and living life every day, letting time pass without knowing my ultimate purpose. Now my eyes are open. I know God works with me every day. He uses the skills I have to improve people’s health and save people’s lives. I really value my career and view it as an opportunity and mission to work together with God. When I see patients, I can really feel the Holy Trinity’s love. They inspire me and help me understand my patients’ situations so that they can recover. When patients tell me their symptoms and suffering, I can feel God’s heart and urgency to help restore their health and cure them. I really feel like He’s working together with me.
During the most miserable part of my life, I lost focus of what was truly important. Through Providence Bible Studies and Pastor Jung Myung Seok, I came to understand life’s true purpose and the void I once felt has vanished. I feel internal peace and happiness. The hole in my heart has been filled with a deep understanding and relationship with God that my spirit was craving. The day I reconnected with God and vowed to live with the Holy Trinity and Lord by my side was the happiest day of my life.
